So maybe we need a break...

It's a funny thing, how it takes nearly earth-shaking developments to get me up off of my ass to write again. So here we are, two days from five years, and suddenly we need a break. Time apart. I can't wrap my mind around the implications ominously fluttering below the surface of the dinnertime conversation from mere hours ago. A break. Time out. Putting it on hold. I guess I've walked myself into this, with my big dreams of school and a career and a purpose. I must be a complete moron to have thought it would go any other way. There may be a purpose for me, but is it really worth this? Was it ever? What do I do with this rot in my chest that keeps infecting my mind?

Inner

It's been a long time.
Yeah, I know.
Where've you been?
Around, and around some more. I nearly feel as though I've lived, even.
Well, what brings you back to these parts?
Not sure... perhaps I finally have something to say again.
Is perhaps even good enough?
Well, it never got in my way before.

Change of Plans

I was fully intent to remain in Louisville long enough to get my Associates degree in Graphic Design. Really, I was. Until Ford went all wacky on me, making changes that I could not agree with. So, I'm taking the educational buyout in September, and heading back to Atlanta to pursue my B.F.A. in Graphic Design instead. I've already completed my application process, and am lining up student loans and such to cover what Ford doesn't. Still, Louisville will hold a place in my heart, and given the chance, I'd love to move back permanently. So, wish me luck, as I uproot my family once again.

Current Mood

Ambivalence, drowning in despair, marked with sudden flashes of white hot fury, accentuated with boredom.
And I don't even know why.

Link: Casino Royale Because There's no Bond like the new Bond. Even Connery, while more cunning, wasn't this blunt or sociopathic. Brilliant performance by Daniel Craig, brilliant remaking of a classic but ridiculous franchise into a serious art again. I'm heading off to watch it again. And again...